Chuseok

2019. 9. 13. Friday. Cool sunny.

Today is the very day of chuseok. It’s the day that families all gather and have memorial services. My family wake up early on this day because guests are coming. We woke up early in the morning and cleaned the house, prepared food. We used to have many visitors but it has been decreased. Today, finally, we had only two visitors. Actually it was nice. Everything was much simpler and quicker. As soon as my uncle and his wife arrived, we prepared the table for the memorial service and finished it. We all had breakfast together and they left right after the breakfast. My family prepared for days for this 1 hour service. Also my uncle had to drive for hours to come my home. No winners here.
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After cleaning, we went to grandmother’s home just like we always have done. I liked to visit grandmother home. When I was young, I used to do all the cleaning just only to go to grandmother home quickly. I had so much fun there. I think I enjoyed hanging out with my cousins. We ran around the village, played games together, did fireworks at night. Mother also had so much fun. Mother, uncles, aunts and grandmother all played the board game till the sunrise. I used to watch they playing and fell asleep. What shocking was that when I woke up in the morning, my grandmother was still awake and giving me food. My grandmother wants me to eat a lot. She always says ‘want some fruits? Fries? Meat? Snack?..’ oh yes, we used to sleep over at grandmother home. Next day we used to go on a short picnic, or go to sing, go to bowling alley. Two days were never be enough but we had to come back home on second day. These are more than ten years ago. There have been lots of changes. We don’t sleep over there anymore. I don’t hang out with cousins sisters because they are not there and some are coming late at night. When we arrived at grandmother home, uncle was sleeping and grandmother greeted us. I am always glad to see grandmother. She is the one who let me know unconditional love is real, also including mother. Sometimes she is harsh on their child, uncle and my mother, but she is super extremely generous to her grandchildren. I want my grandmother to be happy. What I have done today in grandmother home is eating and resting. And we even didn’t stay long. I think we came back home pretty quickly. Maybe because of my father(?) It highly seems so. Clearly we talked about going out together but after a while mother said ‘let’s go home.’. No wonder that my grandmother was disappointed. I am writing about my grandmother and it makes me miss her more. I don’t know what I can do but to visit sometimes. Is it enough to please my grandmother?